"its a roller-coaster kind of rush"
Umm quite a few things have happened since the last time, but somehow i just kept putting it off so now im stuck cause i can't remember it well. Had meetings, i somehow keep zoning out during these drama meetings. Then when we finally leave i see the time and feel like "gahhhh, whyyyyyy, meehhhhaaahakdhhqceiq its 11"
So uh the first year 2 and higher meeting was on fri (shd be):
We are ridiculously stupid people/ Basically g and fizzy talked/made us talk about current drama affairs/problems. hello, people, we actually go to drama we kind know what the problem is. This mass sharing session is stupid. Or maybe (theory here) the doubleu's don't know the problems and thus needed us to speak up about it. But they for some unknown reason cannot ask us them self. Then we talked about the year one's, honestly they are too sane to bond with losers like us. We all had this inner crazy thing that made us so great,but themmmm ughh. ahahaha stop T, your not suppose to judge anymore. Ya i started zoning out right about there?
OH WAIT BEFORE ALL THAT STUPIDITY STARTED
\ we had fun. The most fun i'v had in drama related stuff in a long time. we sang songs together with like so much awesome harmonies and stuff. Yes, was not happy about the late time, but for that moment of fun and joy and freedom i got to have yes i'll go home late.
Second meeting with year ones on wed:
Watched past year productions. wow, i realise how crappy i was. I just auto judged myself and saw the ways i could improve. Guess its a year two thing huh ahahha super judging powers. After a long time watching and saying lines then came the talking. Oh shoots, the moment he said "im sorry" i could not take it i had to laugh. Ahahah omg so idiotic really. Plus like half the stuff he read off from his notebook sounded like he googled definition and then read it. (especially when he was explaining what a cca is about) there's a new date for prouctions 'april' oh my. its soooo farrrrrrr away. like ajhdiorcoirc i will be spending like 4/5 months preparing for this? gosh however if it was on jan, would the year ones be ready? they kinda not so good right now. Agree with siang though, if push back to 31st i will do everything i can to coach those guys. Would rather cancel it, but it would be selfish. And not to mention its more than just drama that's involved need to consider dance. (omitted the other two on purpose cause seriously they won't care)
IM COLD!? where the heck did that come from im not even upset that she said im cold or that two people used me as examples of bonding problems. Im upset she does not know my name, point or say her or something don do what you did. nonsense sia she. And ohhh what i've said before, they are not bonded among themselves in the first place, how do we jump in?! Joe admitted it so yeah, my point proven true.
Roller-coaster
Taylor has been making me up and down lately. I did not want haylor (noooooooooooo) then i moved on to "directioners better not hate on her" defence mode to "there's pictures and videos its akhsfnha" fine i'll take it tay, your decision. But her tour starts next year march she will start prac and all soon then no time to hang out with him ahahah also that guy lives in london, NY was just a show stop place. IM sure their just friends. Maybe ed intro them cause they will like each other as Friends.
Its been pretty hectic this week and so will next week. My attention span for studying seems so short. After few hours feel like sleeping. Still got a lot of practice to do for RS. Saw this really nice dress at amk the colour is an awesome shade of mint green so cool, but ex/..There's some meeting with head honestly annoyed, with the many meetings i have. The pathetic not useful topics we talk about pshs pash.
It not exactly the best thing in the world when people tell me their first impression of me I've realise. Cause its never good. What happened to my apparent sweet and friendly disposition teachers wrote about for 10 years\This is not working out, I expected something would have changed. Maybe something did change and that's the reason why/
"So many walls up, I can't break through. Oh I'm scared to see the ending. I've never heard silence quite this loud. And I'm dying to know is it killing you like its killing me now./"
