Im starting to think that maybe the break on wed was not such a good idea.
I have lost the ability to fake/conjure up energy.
i left artistic on thur feeling hungry and like i was losing my character.
Not sure if its cause g said that throughout i just looked timid and scared.
All this time they've been looking at the main people wayne and faiz.
that when they finally see what the rest of us are doing its shocking to them.
i felt remotely good during CEP in the morning as i could do the questions, but now when i look
at people practising i feel sick.
maybe the warm 'dusty' weather.
Everytime i cough/ breathe i think i smell blood and its scaring me.
my brother is coughing phlegm and blood. did i pass it or did i catch it?
Lately waiting has made me angry, like i feel out of mood when im made to wait for someone
regardless of the person or situtation, i don't feel good.
I should not be doing this right now, i got lab reports to do.
I feel bad over the last report my intro sucked like alot. and i just gave it in anyway.
will be adding stuff before i email her a copy, can't let her know the crappy work i did
Im doing conclusion this time, feels like i've forgotten how to type words in a lab report.
the observation part looks nice, feel good about that.
I feel like im going down, instead of improving im going to suck and drag everyone down.
i want to practise but i have no energy, i don't want to make the others repeat just cause i suck
and like i want them to just bloody tell me exactly what they want, cause i've made up
my mind to fake it and pretend.
"Being frightened is an experience you can't buy"
Not sure if thats meant to be a good thing. Guess it means to embrace your scariest moment.
Apeirophobia- Fear of infinity
